I've always had a spice to me, for as long as I can remember. In middle school, I would make my own jewelry and color on white sneakers to make them unique. I would dress in really brightly colored outfits and wear things that I never saw anyone else wear.
But as I got older, I started to conform. Advisors and parents tell you that if you want to be taken seriously, you have to act and dress a certain way.
I let my creativity start to melt away... I accepted it because I thought it was the way things had to be for my career to progress & start to attract a proper partner.
I made some final, bold hair and hide-able tattoo choices in college, then really started to fall in line with what "professionals" did once I graduated.
I tried to put on this outward image that I was this super put-together professional that did everything perfectly and was living the dream.
I was pretty good at convincing myself of this, too. I was content with what I gave up because I saw my career taking off.
Eventually, in 2021, I started to hit a wall.. I felt uninspired and bored of the life I thought I so desperately wanted.
I kept trying to push those thoughts away and leaned into mind-numbing distractions...
..over-eating
..binge watching Netflix
..drinking more alcohol
..smoking marijuana
..gossiping
..but I just started to feel worse and worse...
It wasn't until 2022 that I woke up and realized I am not who I have been forcing myself to be for the past 13 years of my life.
I built my entire life around an identity that I didn't want anymore. I was SO SCARED of what would happen if I started to unravel the strings.
Would I lose my financial stability?
Would my family no longer respect me?
Would my clients think I was a fraud?
Would my friends think I was losing my mind?
Would I let down people that I really wanted to be a good role model for?
So, you know what I did?
I jumped anyway.
Embrace Your Authentic Self
Why? Well... even though I was riddled with fear and had no idea what the outcome would be, I knew I wasn't the only one having these thoughts. And I knew that by liberating myself, I would be following my human mission to help liberate others.
I have that calling to leadership deep within me & I just didn't care how crazy it makes me look because I have faith that God/the Universe has my back.
As a wise man once said:
"Oh, give me the beat, boys, and free my soul
I want to get lost in your rock and roll
And drift away
And when my mind is free You know a melody can move me And when I'm feeling blue The guitar's coming through to soothe me
Thanks for the joy that you're given me I want you to know I believe in your song Your rythm and rhyme and harmony You've helped me along Makin' me strong"
I hope you go listen to Driftaway by Clarence Carter now LOL. Listening to it will help with this last piece of the blog here...
So, my final question(s) for you is:
Where does your mind take you when you let your soul drift away?
How can you embrace your authentic self?
If you're ready to start exploring the next phase of your evolution and UNMUTE yourself, click to schedule a Free Clarity Session with me.
Leaders jump first, and that's you.
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